One way to start a life in NZ....

Before I left everyone was informing me that they want to know what I'm up to and how everything is going in NZ. I though for sure I would be letting you all know and have lots of interesting stories to tell you. Meanwhile I'm currently sitting here in a room of about 8 people from all over the world and everyone of us knows nothing about each other and is sitting and staring into a net book screen.

I'm having the thought of, as I'm sure any one would, I don't want to be one of those people. I can sit on a computer at home, I didn't come to the other side of the world to do this. I'm finding the whole idea very strange. Yet, obviously to write this I am doing the same thing that they are doing.


So I guess here goes nothing. Although I know what day it is today and I have maybe for the last two days. The whole trip prior to this has blurred in to one great big day! Some highlights of this day??


Lets see, amazing views including mountains, falls, valleys, caves, beaches, pine trees and palm trees all in the same hour! Glow worms (or rather glow maggots), amazing little surfing towns and a city that gives Chicago a run for its windy titile! Lets not forget the people, amazing... but from every corner of the earth but NZ! A rollercoaster of emotions; a hill that kicked my ass or rather detroyed my heels, a famous left hand break that would take any ones breath away, and a last harrah party that had a group of people almost in tears that knew nothing of one another only a week earlier. So far so amazing! 


But this last few days, have been a little bit of a dip on that rollercoaster. I have still been having a great time but I'm starting to find my self wondering why I'm really here. This may steam from my total in- ability to make a decision on anything. But really how did I end up sitting on this sofa writing a blog from this tiny hostel in Nelson? Truth be told I still don't have an answer to this. Maybe I never will and maybe I'm not suppose to. But I Am. Maybe it really is simply "because I can."


I think the ultimate culprit to the dip I'm currently experiencing is the fact that job search always makes you wonder.....wonder "whats happening next" and "should I keep spending money in this place if I'm not gunna get a job". Or is that the wrong attitude? Should I "know that I'm going to get a job by the end of the week". "Maybe I should travel more and worry about work later". Or "Maybe I need to stop thinking about it all together and just let life be life". If any one out there has any idea how to turn your mind off to let it "just let life be life"... let me know!