Decision Making

Why does it have to be so hard? I know a lot of people say that they really suck at making decisions. But I know that I have to be one of the worst people in the world and making a final decision. It takes me a good half hour to decide what I’m going to drink on a Saturday night. But really in the end I don’t even decide, I just end up buying all three options so that if I change my mind later or if I don’t feel like drinking the first choice I can change to the next. 

So here I am, QUEENSTOWN! I love this place!! I’m supposed to get on a bus tomorrow and head to Welly. Get a real job where I’m able to challenge myself and learn from the position I end up in……………. I can’t get on the bus, I just can’t do it. I can’t even explain what I’m feeling right now. I have always listened to my brain and logistics and in the current moment with no hesitation they say get on the bus. Yet, I think part of the whole experience of coming to NZ has taught me to listen to my gut and just do it. Forget what make sense go with what your going to love doing and go with most of all your gut. My gut got me here and I don’t regret that for a second. My gut told me to jump off a bridge (or whatever you want to call that thing) and I will never forget that as it may be the coolest thing I will ever do in my life.  My gut is now saying stay in Queenstown even after it heard the people at the placement agency say go to Welly.

When it comes down to it, I don’t know what I want to do with the rest of my life. Even the things that I thought that I knew and could base everything on in the past don’t seem solid now. How is one supposed to decide what they really want in life when they can’t even decide what they want to drink on a Saturday night? Why does life do this to us? I’ve always been a believer in the simple things of life. But what really are the simple things in life? Not only that but how do you let yourself stop thinking about wrong and right and start going with the flow letting your life take you where it wants you to be on its own.

Written 3am on Sat the 6^th….Started the new Job on the 11^th… Was suppose to get on the bus on Sunday the 7^th 7:45 am